Listen (OMW)

So, what am I listening to? So many things. Dishes rattling, running water, Jake is doing the dishes. He must have a runny nose because I can hear some sniffling as well. I can hear the TV. Sometimes I keep it on for background noise. I think Law and Order is on. I can hear the fridge. It makes a really annoying humming sound, until someone kicks it! I can hear the street car, and someone honking their horn. I hear the sound of the keyboard while I type. There is a lot going on right now. No wonder I can barely hear myself think. Often these noises become louder and louder in my head, almost to the point that I can no longer concentrate. So intrusive. Noise that other people can't always hear screeching in my mind. Someone eating with their mouth open, scraping forks on teeth. These sounds are always so loud to me. When I hear high pitch noises, I lose concentration more easily. I used to wish to be hard of hearing. Obviously I don't really want that, but the noise is so overwhelming.
Do you remember the scene from "Juno" when she is in the abortion clinic waiting room ...that's what my life is always like. I am always listening to music. I take my music with me everywhere. If I didn't, I think I might just go insane.